Stewards

So, in talking to Matt about our life together & where we've come over the past 10 years together, I made the statement that I want us to have newlywed love again. Then, the more I thought about that, the more rediculous that sounded. I mean- why would I give up everything we've learned (even though a lot of it hurt really badly) and all the ways we've grown & changed, to go back to being a newlywed & not have a clue! Sorry to any of you newlyweds reading this, but seriously- you don't have a clue. You will :)

I didn't at one point & that "falling in love" stage is wonderful. But now, more than ever before, do I believe that love is a choice. Something you choose to do even if it's the hardest thing possible at the time. Something you choose to live out daily in your actions, words, and even thoughts- even if the person on the receiving end might not deserve it. You choose to be honest, even if it hurts the other person. You choose to trust even when everything in your head is screaming for you not to. And above all else, you choose to forgive even when the other person

hasn't asked for it.

Therefore, I've come to the conclusion that, right now at this stage, I want real-life movie love. The kind where, at the end of the movie the music comes on & the screen fades to black & you just know that they are going to be together forever. That it might not be perfect, and that they will have many trials to overcome & it's not going to be easy, but what they've already overcome has proven that they will love one another forever.

That's the kind of love I want right now. The kind that people look at us (even if we're not together) and wonder what our secret is, and burn with envy.

So I think I've finally figured out my New Year's resolution.