Wind From My Sails
When I googled an image for "discouraged" this is the first one to catch my attention. This is me, only skinnier. Just to put your minds at ease- the baby is fine. 
For those of you who don't know, I am in school online. I have been in school online for what seems like forever. I am only 5 'lessons' away from being done & receiving my Medical Transcription certificate. I had to file an extension last August due to us moving 3 times in 4 months, I was unable to work on school as often as I would've liked. Anyway- here I am, nearing the end, and for the first time I feel completely and utterly discouraged. I have been receiving nothing but A's and only one B in my last course. However, today I received back my worst grade ever. So bad that I have to re-do everything. The problem is that I checked, re-checked & even had other people check my work & there would've been nothing I would have done differently. So, I have a problem in not knowing where to go from here. I am so close to being done I can almost taste it. You have no idea how hard I have worked. Every single day I work for at least 2 hours, sometimes more (depending on Jackson's nap or other people's availability to watch him while I work) on school. If I am not at work, (yup, still giving massages too) then I am with Jackson. My house, laundry, dishes, flowers etc... all get neglected so that I can work. I would love to nap, or read a book for fun, or simply rest with my feet up but I don't because I need to finish. And now I feel like quitting. I am far past the point of burning out, but this really hit low today. It just stinks when you feel like you're doing really, really well and then something comes along to just kick you in the gut. So, I needed to vent into this big vast void that is my blog. I don't do this a lot. I know some blogs are all about venting like online journals- and this is the first time I've been able to understand why. The following is the caption that went along with the picture I found online:
For those of you who don't know, I am in school online. I have been in school online for what seems like forever. I am only 5 'lessons' away from being done & receiving my Medical Transcription certificate. I had to file an extension last August due to us moving 3 times in 4 months, I was unable to work on school as often as I would've liked. Anyway- here I am, nearing the end, and for the first time I feel completely and utterly discouraged. I have been receiving nothing but A's and only one B in my last course. However, today I received back my worst grade ever. So bad that I have to re-do everything. The problem is that I checked, re-checked & even had other people check my work & there would've been nothing I would have done differently. So, I have a problem in not knowing where to go from here. I am so close to being done I can almost taste it. You have no idea how hard I have worked. Every single day I work for at least 2 hours, sometimes more (depending on Jackson's nap or other people's availability to watch him while I work) on school. If I am not at work, (yup, still giving massages too) then I am with Jackson. My house, laundry, dishes, flowers etc... all get neglected so that I can work. I would love to nap, or read a book for fun, or simply rest with my feet up but I don't because I need to finish. And now I feel like quitting. I am far past the point of burning out, but this really hit low today. It just stinks when you feel like you're doing really, really well and then something comes along to just kick you in the gut. So, I needed to vent into this big vast void that is my blog. I don't do this a lot. I know some blogs are all about venting like online journals- and this is the first time I've been able to understand why. The following is the caption that went along with the picture I found online:Failures and setbacks can be very discouraging.
Sometime these discouragements can be so overwhelming,
you just want to give up.
As you will soon see, outward appearances can be deceptive.
I am hoping to see the silver lining soon. This will be my last post for awhile.
Sometime these discouragements can be so overwhelming,
you just want to give up.
As you will soon see, outward appearances can be deceptive.
I am hoping to see the silver lining soon. This will be my last post for awhile.
I do not plan to post again until I am finished. I don't post that often as it is, but now every spare second I do have on the computer will be spent on school.
Kira, I am sorry that this happened and hear the hurt in your voice (yes, writing does have a voice). You are an increadible person and you brighten any room you walk into. Take a deep breath, look at some things that lift your heart (family pictures, wonderful views, and some inspirational words), and take some you time (bubble bath, soak in the hot tub, etc.) then roll up your sleaves and do what you need to do, rework the assignment and make it better. You have all the tools to do so. While you work keep remembering that you are loved very much by a large number of folks.
You are a precious gift to your family, friends and to God. We are all here for you and are willing to do anything to help. Just let us know what you need. You are extremely capable and worthy of this degree. Don't let this set-back do all of that in. Stick with it, and you will come out on top. We're loving you and praying for you!